"I don't think it's very easy," he says, catching the scent of what he's sure is an especially good pizza place and he steers them in that direction without thinking. If they arrive and Reid says he wants something else, Luke will be more than happy to keep moving, but he smells the sauce and the cheese and his stomach tells him to head in that direction, so he obeys. There are a fair number of stereotypes about werewolves that had proven to be true after he'd been bitten, and the fact that he needs to eat significantly more in general than the average person is the one that annoys him more than most others. He can handle the heightened sensations, he can handle being able to identify people by scent, hearing their heartbeats, being slightly more in tune to their emotions. He can even handle turning on the full moon and having to lock himself up. But the cost of feeding himself in a city is ridiculous, though no more than if he were feeding a small family, he supposes.
"Staying friends after something like that, I mean," he continues, realizing he's left the statement hanging. "Being rejected is difficult enough, but to have tried something only to feel it crumble... well, it takes a lot of strength just to remain friendly, even if you don't remain friends, but I'm also of the belief that it usually can be quite worthwhile to at least make the attempt. If you care about someone enough to have developed any kind of romantic feelings for them beyond simply physical, they must be someone worth spending more time with." And while he knows the physical aspects can certainly be difficult to ignore, especially for a werewolf, especially nearing the full moon, he also knows he's capable of it.
Lately he thinks it's lucky he's had such great practice with it, especially tonight, with the full moon less than a week behind them. It isn't so bad now, he's more or less recovered from it, but there are difficult times when it feels like all he can smell and hear is Reid. Pressing in on him from every angel, reminding him of what he wants but can't have. The full moon makes it a little easier, too, to convince himself maybe he can have it, but Luke ignores that part of him and it isn't that he doesn't want Reid, but he knows what he's like when the full moon is near isn't entirely himself. A lot of that is the wolf and he knows he and the wolf are one and the same, but he also still needs to control that side of him.
"The only relationship I've ever been in had been another werewolf," he admits and then realizes if he has any hope of something progressing with Reid, he has to be honest with him. "And... I suppose Mindy. It was... brief. It didn't last long. I realized fairly early on that there was someone else she wanted and ended it. I'm sorry, I probably should have told you that before I invited you tonight."
The way he says it makes it sound as if he'd invited Reid on a date and he wrinkles his nose slightly, looking down at the ground as they walk, feeling faintly embarrassed. Maybe he hadn't owed Reid any explanation as to what Mindy had once been to him, but it's not the sort of thing he wants to have come up later and for it to look as if he'd kept it from Reid on purpose. "We're much better as friends," he adds a second later, looking up at Reid and chancing a smile. "And she's in love with Danny, which hopefully works out for everyone involved."
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"Staying friends after something like that, I mean," he continues, realizing he's left the statement hanging. "Being rejected is difficult enough, but to have tried something only to feel it crumble... well, it takes a lot of strength just to remain friendly, even if you don't remain friends, but I'm also of the belief that it usually can be quite worthwhile to at least make the attempt. If you care about someone enough to have developed any kind of romantic feelings for them beyond simply physical, they must be someone worth spending more time with." And while he knows the physical aspects can certainly be difficult to ignore, especially for a werewolf, especially nearing the full moon, he also knows he's capable of it.
Lately he thinks it's lucky he's had such great practice with it, especially tonight, with the full moon less than a week behind them. It isn't so bad now, he's more or less recovered from it, but there are difficult times when it feels like all he can smell and hear is Reid. Pressing in on him from every angel, reminding him of what he wants but can't have. The full moon makes it a little easier, too, to convince himself maybe he can have it, but Luke ignores that part of him and it isn't that he doesn't want Reid, but he knows what he's like when the full moon is near isn't entirely himself. A lot of that is the wolf and he knows he and the wolf are one and the same, but he also still needs to control that side of him.
"The only relationship I've ever been in had been another werewolf," he admits and then realizes if he has any hope of something progressing with Reid, he has to be honest with him. "And... I suppose Mindy. It was... brief. It didn't last long. I realized fairly early on that there was someone else she wanted and ended it. I'm sorry, I probably should have told you that before I invited you tonight."
The way he says it makes it sound as if he'd invited Reid on a date and he wrinkles his nose slightly, looking down at the ground as they walk, feeling faintly embarrassed. Maybe he hadn't owed Reid any explanation as to what Mindy had once been to him, but it's not the sort of thing he wants to have come up later and for it to look as if he'd kept it from Reid on purpose. "We're much better as friends," he adds a second later, looking up at Reid and chancing a smile. "And she's in love with Danny, which hopefully works out for everyone involved."